Thursday, December 30, 2010

2010 Move Over for 2011 To Arrive

As we close out 2010 we reflect on all the happenings (good & bad) for the past 12 months. We hopefully learn from our mistakes, embrace the beauty of our babies in our life and move forward to become a better person.
There are many things that make us all grow as individuals, as husbands & wives; as grandparents; parents; co-workers but most of all as God's children.
I wish for a church family that we can settle into and learn from others. I wish for my kids to seek out God in their hearts and help their children find him as well.
I wish for full time employment for Jack to make him feel more complete.

I pray that better health come to my family and to Jack and that this be the last year of kidney stones for him.

May God be part of all your lives and may he always be within your heart.

Welcome 2011 and may you bring love, joy, happiness and peace to all. Happy New Year my friends!

Monday, December 6, 2010

An Exciting Month

December is always such an exciting month. I love everything about Christmas and it starts with getting the house ready with baking, card writing and of course decorating. I also love buying gifts, clothes etc. for our adopt a family that we take on at work. Now in December we have Jack and Wyatt to share birthday gatherings and so that's even more exciting.
But this year I have chosen to take Jack away for a warm vacation....our gift to each other. He hasn't had much luck in finding any work and so a friend from work showed me this awesome cruise in the Caribbean and we leave Saturday from Miami. Now being the travel convey nor, I decided to book our flights only through warm destinations so we aren't storm stuck somewhere. So Wed am we fly to Phoenix and then onto Miami on Thursday. We will be trading the snow in for some sand and then on the weekend we trade the regular sand in for much whiter sand (or at least that's what I'm told).
When we get back it will already be the week of Christmas and so there will be lots to do to get ready for family to arrive from Saskatoon. Plus the babies should be walking by then. Last night at the (shared) birthday event, Wyatt took 2 steps to me without hanging onto anything. I will miss seeing him walk but I know that 10 days away isn't long for him to get running.
So Merry Christmas to everyone and may the Lord Jesus be close to your heart over the holiday season.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Thank you

Thank you to everyone that was praying for my dad - I can report that his surgery was a success and he came home on his 7th day in the hospital. The hospital has home care come in on a daily basis to change out his dressings. The nurse today did say that they thought he was getting an infection in his staples so he will call the doctor and get a prescription.
Today and yesterday were the Christmas set up days. I made lots of baking, finished my cards and then set up the tree & village. I don't want to get behind before we go away in early December.
Last night we babysat Wyatt and Breanne and Lyla came for a visit. It was a couple of weeks since the kids were together at Lyla's party. It is fun to watch these two little ones learn to play and share (some but not much happening there). But Wyatt had dinner with us and even went to bed without a fuss so things are changing. I can hardly wait for the grandkids to see the tree lit up. I decided to go with an easy decoratihg and non-breakable items this year. Looks good and should be more durable.
Well not many more sleeps until we are on our cruise and let me tell you i really need this after this year of turmoil and dissappointment. I hope to come back refreshed and more positive about the future.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

An exciting but Prayerful Week Ahead

This week a head will be one that is filled with fun, laughter and then onto some prayerful, emotional time.

My beautiful granddaughter, Lyla will be turning one. Where has the year gone? I didn't know that so much love could be passed onto such a little person, an extension of love from a mother to a daughter. Every time I see Lyla it reminds me of my days with her mommy, Breanne. My little Breanne has now grown into this beautiful woman that has just become a wife but more than that she has become such a nurturing, calming mother. And I must say way better than I did at her age. I know deep in my heart that this little girl will grow up with dignity, pride and very diva dressed. I'm just sorry that I will miss her actual birthday along with Breanne's birthday when she turns 26.
This week also holds much of the unknown as my father undergoes surgery to correct the colostomy that he needed one year ago. At least this time I will be there with my mom waiting to see how he pulls through. Last year in October it was a scare for both Jack and I when we received the call that my dad's bowel had burst and was undergoing major surgery. We were in Edmonton at my Aunt's side waiting for my uncle to breathe his last breath and pass away from painful brain cancer. But my dad has done so well and over come so much with having to carry his waste on the outside of his body. This humbling experience has shown us that you can carry on with life and that people will love you and encourage and support you all the way through.
While I am in Saskatoon, my dear friend that passed away (way to early at 52)we will all be celebrating on what would of been his birthday, Nov 11th. Darryl would of been 53 and was married to my best friend for 30 years. This evening is to be filled with memories, stories and of course I'm sure a few tears. Darryl was my neighbor growing up and then he was the first older guy that I dated. But it was my friend Penny that stole his heart and for that we have all been close friends for years. Our oldest children were born a couple months apart, bowled together in a league and to this day both my son Ryan, and their daughter, Lisa still talk on facebook regularly. They both went into broadcasting in separate cities and Lisa has gone on to become on air radio announcer in Northern Sask. I marvel at how so much love in a friendship can carry on for years. Even though we have all moved away our connection to one another still pulls us back.
This will be a week filled with much joy & pride; then much anticipation of hope for my dad's recovery; and then onto the celebration of a dear friend's life that was taken so early from us. I know that I am thankful of own good health and that of Jack's and my children & now grandchildren as well.
May God be with my dad as he undergoes major surgery and let him resume his vibrant life that he once had.

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Selling Stuff

I am ever so grateful that we will finally have at least 2 different buyers that want to come today and buy our hot tub. Our dear hot tub that has sat all year with only a few granddaughters that "swam" in it. We have been trying off and on since June to sell this four year old, hot/warm water bucket in our yard. Since my kids moved out we just haven't used it like we thought we would have. We laugh about us buying this tub on a whim....I'm sure not many folks have that same buying mentality....where you see it; need it; have to buy it; and then after some time, that needing feeling goes away. Now I just need to figure out what item I can purchase for that empty space on the deck????? I'm sure it will be something that I will need and will make great use of!
Isn't that funny how life has us believing that we need to fill up areas that are vacated; or we need to replace things that have gone away or we've made changes in our life. God is instrumental in all changes in everyday life and sometimes we need to strip ourselves of all the outside, materialistic things and just start anew!

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Time for Prayer

Jack and I were given a beautiful 4 bedroom home to stay at in Kimberly last weekend and it was fabulous. The home belongs to friends that own this as a recreation home..God does truly bless some folks. Anyway it was great to get-away, golf some, sleep in and most of all enjoy God's nature that he created. We had a doe and her two fawns crash in the yard during the day and early evening. It was like being right with the animals.
Then on our way home, I got the dreaded call that my dear friend Darryl passed away peacefully from bone cancer. When I got home I called Penny (his wife/my high school girlfriend). She told me that it was so peaceful for him. He was filled up with fluid but about 30 min. before his passing the gurgling stopped. He was still listening to his wife & daughter talk to him. Then 10 mins. before he reached up and said "open the gates further, I need them opened more". Then just before he passed away he started talking again, "I see wings, I can see wings". Penny and her daughter, Lisa told him that it was okay to go, that they would be okay, that their other daughter/sister who is in another hospital suffering from a brain stem injury, due to her husbands reckless driving, that she would be okay; And then he took his last breath and was gone...so peaceful. (Now this couple didn't attend church other than Xmas & Easter; they were married in one church and their girls were baptized there as well but that was it). This conversation brought me some peace as well for them. Just knowing that he didn't suffer was okay. His service is this Saturday morning.
Then the next thing I got was a message that my dear great aunt (91) who lives here in Calgary passed away. And her passing was peaceful as well - talking with her grown daughter right up to her last breath. The last thing that they told each other was that they loved one another...again very surreal knowing that she too didn't suffer. She has been cremated and her ashes mixed in with her husbands (my uncle) who passed away from Alzheimers and cancer 2 years ago. Their ashes will be interned in Ontario later next spring.
So I thought that was it, and then my mom called on Monday to say that our good friends father passed away from his plight with alzheimers. He was pretty much comotose when he passed. His service is this Thursday.
With all this saddness I was reading a book that Jack has been after me to read and it has helped me put life in perspective. The author is Shauna Niequist and the title is "Cold Tangerines". Some of the book was like looking into a mirror and when I posted a message on my friends Memorial page, I used one of the comments from the book as I thought it was appropriate..."Life with God at its core is about giving your life up to something bigger and more powerful. It's about saying at every turn that God knows better than we know, and that his Spirit will lead us in ways that we couldn't have predicted". Ladies this is a great book and Shauna has written a second one out so I will post the title when I have read that one.
Life has a many twists and turns and we never know when our time will come to an end. But knowing that my last three friends/family passing were peaceful and trusting makes my soul feel a bit lighter.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Is Summer Nearly Over

Where has the summer gone? It seems like only yesterday and we were counting down the days until the wedding. And we all know what happens on that day - it goes by in the blink of an eye. And so then I thought I could enjoy August - but that seems to have slipped by as well. Perhaps, it flew by because I was busy with golfing every week; or perhaps I was spending so much time with my beautiful Lyla & handsome Wyatt. These babies have grown and changed so much, every day and I don't and didn't want to miss a day. So I saw them on average 3- 4x a week. Such a lift to a persons soul.
August is more than half over and already the commercials on tv are driving me crazy with the back to school slogans. Jack's granddaughters are looking forward to returning to new schools; old schools but to friends most of all. My nephews in the US don't start until after labour day so they still have a bit of freedom. I just have a short 2 weeks until the conference, to which I'm on the committee will be up and running in Lake Louise. Here Jack gets to come and relax and enjoy one of God's truly majestic places on earth.
But this weekend with a couple of extra days thrown in, we will be out in Kimberly enjoying some hospitality of some dear friends and getting away for a retreat to the end of summer. Or at least I think it will be a retreat...I need to find some books to read. Jack got me to relax yesterday with a variety of movies and pj day (all day). All I had to do was make breakfast and dinner and we snacked and enjoyed funny, serious and "who don'it" kind of flicks. Somehow if the weather isn't good, I can see us doing the same thing in Kimberly.
Regardless of how the summer went, 2010 will be coming to a close very soon. In some way we can reflect back and say it was sad; it was complicated; it was serene; it was breath taking; but most of all it was togetherness. We always come away and say it was our determination as a couple to do things and achieve things - together. I love my life with all the bumps and hiccups along the way and most of all I love my soul mate who is there with me; beside me and most of all respecting me as our journey sometimes goes in many different directions.
Here's to enjoying the last days of the summer of 2010!

Friday, August 6, 2010

Disappointment & Happiness All in One Month

July came and went but not without much sadness and then near the end pure joy and happiness.
We lost getting our new home as we couldn't sell our current place. The market in Calgary has taken a turn for the worse and houses are just sitting on the market. As a home seller you either keep holding out or you drop your price drastically just to encourage real shoppers...too which we weren't prepared to do. So having said that we chose to not sell which meant we had no choice but to not buy our dream home. Fortunately for us, we were able to receive our deposit cheque back in the mail last week. As well, I noticed that our dream house is back in the pool of homes for sale by the builder, with a lovely $40,000 increase in price.....huh?
Then came the highlight that we were all waiting for - Breanne & Marc saying there I DO's! It was such a magical day and the weather was fantastic for the complete weekend. It was a sure joy to walk my beautiful daughter up the aisle (with her dad) and then to have Jack marry them. Jack included a family prayer with all of us and Lyla. Such a beautiful service. One of the highlights was Jack forgetting the rings out in the car and asking me to take his car keys to go and get them....right during the vow part. Needless to say the kids thought he was joking and when the guests started clapping & laughing they knew that he wasn't kidding. So a bit of humor to always remember on their day.
My mom & dad helped out so much in preparing the yard for the rehearsal dinner and then starting the bbq. Thank you for all that you did. The bridal luncheon on the Friday was our special time for just my daughters, my mom and sister. To which my sister made a special toast and gave me a very special gift...just for being her sister. It was a beautiful strand of pearls that she had won at an auction and she said that she didn't need 2 sets. What an amazing sister I have and now a beautiful gift to always know how close we are as sisters.
After all the festivities and feeling very exhausted, Jack and I went to Panorama for a well deserved long weekend. Both of us were both mentally and physically exhausted and enjoyed doing a little visiting but much more - needed rest.
So after much sadness July came to close with my heart & soul being refreshed, enlightened and a feeling of peace. Peace with our life, our journey and most of all a peaceful feeling of knowing that no matter what happens, Jack and I will be just fine. We have so much to live for and to continue searching for our new church family out there. We are both ready to move into our next phase of 2010 and leave the first of half behind us.

Monday, July 12, 2010

Life Can be Unfair Sometimes

I just heard back from my parents about my best friends in Saskatoon. Darryl (I used to date him) has been diagnosed with bone cancer of the spine. He has been suffering with back ache since mid May after a diagnosis of a cancer growth on his eyelid. They were waiting to hear back from a specialist in Calgary that deals with cancer of the eye. When his family doctor sent him for xrays of his back, both the doctor and the radiologist missed the cancer and said his back problems were from pulled muscle. But they gave him heavy medication. After a couple more weeks of suffering; a chiropractor then said he couldn't help him and to seek another opinion, his wife finally took him to the hospital emergency room. When they ran another xray the doctor asked how could these doctors of missed a totally disintegrated 11th disc and pockets of cancer down his back. Move ahead 4 days and a MRI revealed that he was totally covered in cancer. Now 2 discs are rubbing bone on bone and his pain has brought him to morphine every 4 hours with another pain killer in between. So I drove out to Sasktoon for a quick 24hr trip to see him & my best friend, Penny. They are devastated as he is only 53 and his life was just ahead of him. Then after 1 more week in the hops ital, there youngest married daughter drops her 1 year old off at the house for her sister (who is visiting) to babysit and goes out with her husband. Her husband drives recklessly and crashes their vehicle into a power pole on the wives side the vehicle. So at 9:30 pm Sat evening, Penny gets a call from the police to say that her daughter was in a serious crash and needs to come to the hospital. Upon arriving they find her daughter with a broken collarbone; smashed pelvis, internal bleeding and most likely a crushed liver. She is not expected to live. So the family decide to try and get Darryl transferred from one hospital to the other to see his dying daughter as he is most likely not going to make it much longer either.
How sad is this story? As a parent and wife who's bedside do you sit beside? How do you split your time between two people that you love and you want to hang onto both? This is just tearing at my heart & soul and I know that everyone is asking, why, why - how come life is so harsh? What have these people done?
And you know the hardest part - when I was visiting Darryl and we were both crying and talking about our past lifetime with all of us together in high school, I told Darryl that he did have it better than some. At least he would get a chance to say goodbye to his family. Whether it be in a letter, video tribute to them or whatever. As when a family member is killed in an accident they never get that opportunity...dejavu? How awful to have said that and feel that this was an omen.
How do you pray for hope in this situation? How do you request God to not take both and not put Penny through anymore pain & suffering? How do you ask God to make sure that the little 1 year old baby, not be without a mother and most likley a father as charges are pending against him for this accident.
Once I dry my eyes (for the millionth time) I will ask God to be kind and save at least one of them. And to spare a young person rather than a dear, dear friend.

Monday, June 28, 2010

Prayers for Work

Over the past couple of months I have been searching for prayers for Jack. It is amazing how many you can find on the internet and I'm greatful for that. Here are a few that I will share with you, feel free to pass on or pray for others that have lost their jobs.

In Time of Need
Heavenly Father, in my present need, help me to believe that You are aware of my anxiety and will do what is best for me. Give me the strength to trust You and put the present and future in Your Hands. Grant this through Christ, our Lord. Amen.

Dear God, I place my humble needs before you:
My need to meet my responsibilities in the world.
My need to use my God-given talents and abilities.
My need to fulfill my place here on earth.
I pray for Your guidance now to show me the way
To the perfect opportunity to do what I love,
To do what I can do well, and what will fulfill
My needs mentally, spiritually, and financially.
Help me to walk in faith as You show me the way!
Thank You, Lord. Amen!

My favorite:

Lord, you are a loving Father and generous to your children.
You bless and inspire the world with your good work.
Help me in my search for profitable work
So that I may care for my own as well as you have cared for me.
Thank you Lord, for your loving guidance today. Amen!

Friday, June 18, 2010

Another Week

Another week has nearly come to an end and lots has happened. It seems that everyday I'm either painting, cleaning or just scheduled to be out of the house in the evening. I keep telling Jack that we can sleep in on Saturday, but will that actually happen - not sure!
This week we received good news that my dad will be able to have his colostomy reversal done in August. He must have his chemo appointment in July then surgery in August then three months before the next chemo treatment. His recovery time will be six months before he will be ruled a clean bill of health. Lots can go wrong and things that you don't even know can happen. So we won't be booking any trip with them to Europe until he has passed the six month mark.
Also we had a showing (with not more than 2 hours notice) and were shocked when the real estate agent wrote comments on our "call to view" page. This page is for feedback to the seller about your home - or at least that is what we were told it was for. Anyway, do you know what kind of a neighborhood you live in? I always thought that McKenzie Lake was a family, middle to high income area. Yes, the area we are in is the 2nd phase of about 4 so no issues there. I also know that we live on an inside crescent so no outside traffic flow happening. I also know that we haven't had a murder, rape, robbery, house invasion or drug bust of a home etc. on our block or surrounding area. And yet, some supposed realtor that "used to sell houses in McKenzie Lake" had the audacity to write that his client didn't feel safe in our neighborhood. Well I sure took exception to that and wrote him a note - here are the email transcripts along with his (of course) rebuttal: On a scale of 1 to 4. Was the property appealing? 2- Somewhat Are you considering a second showing? No
Would you like to be kept informed if we receive an offer on the property? No
Please rate the exterior condition? Average Please rate the interior condition? Average; Please rate the floor plan: Average Additional comments: (optional) (the neighbourhood is a little too rough for my clients)

My email back:
I am attaching the comments that you reported on the “Call to View” page and wanted you to know that we appreciate when realtor's take the time to let sellers know the feedback. However, the last comment about the “neighborhood being a little too rough” I believe is uncalled for. The community of McKenzie Lake is a fairly fluent area consisting of middle to high income home owners and by using this type of slander makes me worried for folks that are trying to purchase property and what they are being told about family communities. As well, we as a community have issues just like any other community in an ever growing city. But there have been no murders, drug houses being shut down or any other criminal activity on our block or surrounding area that I am aware of.
I would hope that this was just a slip and that you didn’t mean to print this or my suggestion to the real estate board is that all realtor's would have to take a sensitivity class before taking clients out and publishing comments that are hurtful and derogatory.

His Reply:
Feedback is requested and comments are done on a complimentary basis. The reason many realtor's no longer give feedback is just as per the email below. The comment was meant as a constructive comment and nothing but. I apologize if you feel offended but maybe don’t ask for feedback if you don’t like the commentary. I am well aware of the community of McKenzie as I worked in it for 10 years. Yes, parts of it are very affluent and others are a little worn down. That is what was intended by the comments.

Okay, call me prejudice but if you have ever lived in a community you know how old each part is. I believe that if he truly sold houses in this community and he had a client that wanted to buy, then he shouldn't of taken them to the 2nd oldest part and not expected to see older homes. "Worn down", sorry I don't agree as our particular Crescent has home owners who take pride in their homes. There aren't a bunch of renters that let the yards go to hell. Anyway, I was serious about the "sensitivity training" as I have no issue in commenting on the house, but you are pushing it when you talk about "safety". As well, what do most mothers tell their children, if you don't have anything nice to say......"
Besides we live in a city with all kinds of crime everywhere and someone isn't going to find a home where there is no crime.
So that's my happy story and my not so happy story.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Time is ticking down

Time is going by so fast that some days I feel like I never accomplish anything. We have so many balls in the air that it's scary.
Breanne & Marc's wedding is now 45 days away and there are so many things to do, buy or just plain pick up. The babies still don't have outfits and we need to get that ordered as well. The wagon needs work for the processional and the goodies need ordering,plus the candy, plus, plus, plus.
Then there's our house. The one were in hasn't sold as there are 10,000 homes for sale in the City of Calgary. We don't have much competition in our price range, in McKenzie Lake but thank God the new home is finished and won't be done now until September. First it was July, then mid August and now mid September. Does it sound like God has his hand in this plan? I think so. We won't be homeless for long if at all when you look at no sale on this end and a delayed move in date.
Then add to our list of things, Jack hasn't found a full time job either. He has a contract for part time work until August but has been sending in resumes to various places. Time is busy ticking away with this being a big part of securing a mortgage and being able to move on.
So with all these balls in the air we have been busy with grand babies, planting (real) flowers to spruce up the yard; continuing with wedding plans; as well we have been evacuated out of the house for several open houses or just plain showings.
Life is never dull and my wish is to have everyone pray for Jack to secure full time employment and take one of our balls out of the air permanently. We continue to pray for many things but this is a rather important one for our future.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

2nd Last Day of May and feeling Revived

Today is Sunday, May 30th and it feels more like November or March, but not almost the beginning of June. That is the weather feeling but not the spiritual feeling. Jack and I have been discussing seriously for the past 2 weeks about getting back into the church groove. We feel that our soul has started to heal and that it was time to go and hear a spiritual message. Now don't get me wrong, I love doing devotions with my husband, but somehow I needed to hear a different message. Even reading the paper this morning, the Christian section talked about Christians that only go to church 2x a year (Christmas & Easter) and the only 2 messages that they get from that. My soul needs a different message and so does my heart.
So with that we decided that going to Oak Park was the right thing to do. When we entered church the elder greeting was very friendly and encouraging. Then as we walked further into the foyer we were once again greeted by several folks wearing some kind of official name tags, but again very friendly in there welcome to us. We did have a chuckle about "which other CCOC members might be there" and low and behold sitting near the back to the side were Bob & Betty Watts along with Wes & Roberta and family. So we chose to sit behind them. They commented on having had the same thought when they got to church as well.
The message that Steve McMillan gave was quite close to what the newspaper had said about the 2x a year visitors. As well he talked about the journey that Oak Park was going to be on and the new things that they were going to be doing. Most of the dialogue were things that Maryvale had already been doing so it was nice to hear that people want to give back to their community.
After church we were invited by the Watts families to go out to lunch. This proved most interesting as it allowed all of us to share our feelings on Oak Park and what/where we see ourselves going to worship. Many feelings shared were the same, and yet we were looking for different areas of interest but the main agreed interest was the need for some spiritual focus. To hear a gospel or read from the bible and hear the translation was a common factor.
We talked on the way home about it being too soon to settle on a church as well the need to not want to get involved with any ministries as of yet. So we will continue to go to several churches to have ourselves spiritually met. I know that it will take some time, but that's okay. We're not in a rush to settle and I know that when we do it will be for all the right reasons. God is everywhere and so knowing that we will take our time to be a part of his church family which is okay with us.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Life's Journey

Our journey lately has been a turbulent one but we have held our ground and become closer as a couple. We have loved watching our new home getting built and much like life the house has most of the outside complete. So we continue to journey together and apart finding new things and new friends.
Jack signed me up for a ladies golf school to help me "refine" my game and meet some new ladies. So last week was my first lesson and wouldn't you know it but a golf supplier for the company I work for, is my instructor. Of course he only knows me from work and not my "golf skills". Wasn't he in for a surprise. Not to mention that I was enrolled in a intermediate class - not a beginners. So much to my surprise I met some lovely ladies (only 6 in the class) and also learned quite a bit about my handling of a golf club plus my stance was all wrong. I also learned that I needed to get "newer" clubs as mine were from the 80's. So after a great discount from my instructor, hitting the driving range yesterday was wonderful. I am really excited about going for lesson #2 on Tuesday.
Yesterday was a first of open houses for our house and one promising lady that came through. Our realtor plans on having a couple more open houses next weekend, as well the one lady plans to bring her brother through, as she dislikes the kitchen (this was my opinion as well). Her brother is a contractor so she wants his opinion on what could be done. We pray that they see the beauty of the whole house and that she will make this her home (after Breanne's wedding in July).
So life's journey continues for both of us. Jack is reading more and keeping his spirits up and we are faithfully doing our devotions together to enrich and bring us closer together to God as a couple, plus we are getting on with our life in whatever direction that takes us.
Thank you to all of you that have reached out to us this past month...we couldn't of gone on with out all your prayers, letters, cards, and emails. We love all of you and want you to know that Life's Journey has taken on another avenue and we are feeling blessed by all of you.

Saturday, May 1, 2010

The Door is Closed

The big office clean up happened at 6:30pm last night. And yes it was difficult to sort through and pack up but it was the final chapter in the book. Some might say that it must of been good to do this or some might say that it was the finale and I believe that both statements are true. The crew to help clean were Jack's brother, Bud & Marlene, our good neighbor Kevin who had his van and years of experience of moving things and my son-in-law, Cecil who had his truck to take away the bookshelves.
While Bud & Marlene worked on packing up the books, I helped Jack sort through nine plus years of binders, papers, gifts, photo's etc. Was it tough - you bet it was. The memories were overwhelming for both of us. But yet we managed to keep it together while we did this.
While it was tough to do this, it was tougher seeing some folks at the church that had a harder time coming to see us and say "nothing" or just "goodbye". When I hear "goodbye" I know that this means, we won't see you again, or the door is now closed and we know you won't be back. And that's okay for me. As change has to happen and it won't if we are still there.
To the folks that wouldn't come out to say good bye, good luck and remember God is always watching!
As we settled into our home last night, we talked about the relief of knowing that this last bit has been handled. The books and papers neatly piled in the old office, the keys turned in, the lights turned off and the door closed. However, we know that we have not closed the door to Jesus. Somewhere amongst the hurt and disappointment in how this whole thing was handled, we will go on to continue to want to follow in Christ's footsteps. We will still reach out to others in the areas that we are both gifted and we know that we will make a difference, just somewhere else.
I know that this is not Sunday (my hardest day of the week) but I know that my soul has started to heal and the more that we read together and talk about things, I feel that I am soon ready to go back out into the world of believers.
We have had several invites to go to a variety of churches and one that was the closest to our hearts, was from a family that left Maryvale. This young family took the time to correspond and encourage us! Hard to believe in some ways, but after reading the hurt they experienced and being able to relate to them, we have to believe that there are still good people out there. And in my last message to them, I expressed how we might just show up in the lobby of there new place to worship, and we would be there because we want to all be fed spiritually together. After all, isn't that what church family wants - togetherness in Christ?

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Spring a Time For New Beginnings

How fitting this title would be for what has gone on in our lives to date! As I sit and read and let my eyes wonder out to the trees, I see new buds trying to peak out from there winter rest. The snow has melted and the lush green grass is peaking out as well. The amazing thing that spring is truly happening right before my eyes, brings a similarity to our lives at the same time.
As trees bud and grass turns green, we have a newness about our life as well. Jack has a new road ahead of him and we hope that it will be green and budding as well. We pray that the newness of things being bigger and better than the last but most of all that he may fulfill his need in wanting to continue to help others.
I see so much newness a head including a home that we hope to call our own in just a few short months. We have watched on a daily basis from just a basement poured to having a floor put in place, to now having walls put up to form a real main floor. We hope to watch this "spring time of a home" come to life and bring happiness and delight to all of it's potential, just like the road ahead in life. We all want a happy road filled with being content, happy and pure pleasure. We don't want any disappointment or sadness but isn't that life as well? We have to learn from mistakes or hurt from others but the key word is to "learn"!
I want to go and worship with others but right now I still can't do that. Jack and I have started to do more devotions together. We have become closer and more guarded in our future plans but again we have decided when the time is right we will once again share with others in the Christian faith. Protecting each other is something that I see when birds build nests to lay there eggs and keep predators away...sometimes I feel like that protective bird not wanting others to come between my family, my home, my husband. And yet I know that the wanting and needing of being with other Christians praising the Lord and singing in harmony is still within my soul. So for now I will keep at arms length and share with a few until that day that I have to leave the nest and venture to a new home filled with Jesus love for us all.

Monday, April 12, 2010

Where is Your Church Family

I'm sure that most won't be surprised by this title, and maybe some will be. But our church family was ripped away by six men who arbitrarily decided that Jack shouldn't be employed by the church do to "restructuring" and so a decision like that wipes out what/where/who you belong to after 11 years for me and a life time for Jack. Is there hurt - you bet! Is there a sense of being kicked to the curb - you bet! Do I feel rejected - you bet! This is something that I have never ever felt in my lifetime. When we came to the church it was because some young punks decided to re-design our home in a destructive way. And the church welcomed us, helped us heal and offered us a safe haven of not judging people and being there for them in their time of need and their time of joy. I felt like I had reached the end of a rainbow, so I threw myself into events that I loved to do to give back. To give to others that needed a meal or a hug or to just come to something that showed people cared. I even felt so inclined to be re-baptized and to make the decision as an adult to have this done. As I had been baptized in infancy and now being a mature adult and having a wonderful, supporting small group who encouraged spiritual growth - now was the time.
As I stand by my husband, which has been something that I have done for the past 18 years of marriage I realize that together, no matter what has been done, we as a couple must not and cannot have our faith taken away from us. We must journey together and try to realign ourselves with a "new" church family. For me, I will still have reservations and for Jack, it will probably never be the same as his family heritage stretches so far back with the Church of Christ. Yet somehow we have to trust in God to continue and not let us be bitter towards friends in Christ as in the end, it is God that judges and for us we pray that God will be walking with us in our new journey of "Where is our NEW Church Family"?

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Encouraging Sunday

Easter Sunday this year brought back many happy childhood memories. One was going to church as a family (this year my two daughters, Breanne & Nicole came with their 2 babies, Lyla & Wyatt). Plus Jack's son-in-law, Rob came for Easter service and even took communion with me. His wife & girls went back to Saskatoon for Easter/Spring break.
The singing was particularly good with many harmony songs. The communion was at stations (just like stations of the cross or like the Catholic church in coming forward to have communion or just a blessing). This was very encouraging. The only sad thing was not seeing some of the familiar faces that no longer attend for whatever the reason might be. I miss them but I understand the dilemma that they are going through.
Then our day was complete with all of my children & their spouses going to Nicole & Cecil's place for a complete turkey dinner. This was Nicole's first ever turkey, stuffing & gravy making attempt and boy she did a fabulous job. We all brought the rest of the meal and to top it off Breanne made for the first time (all because she had the Easter Egg Platter) deviled eggs. Again, a total surprise.
So to not be done over by his sisters, Ryan made a salad that even included him making candied pecans with cheese & cranberries and on top a raspberry vinaigrette dressing. I don't know if I can keep up with them and all their hidden talents. However, I guess that all the entertaining and cooking that I did when they lived at home has paid off for them to realize that KD isn't the only thing to make. I was so very, very proud of each of them for making my memories come to life on this very special day.
I pray that Easter was a special time in each of your hearts and that you had many old and new memories renewed.

Friday, March 26, 2010

The Ink is Dry on This One

Well it's official! We have signed off on all the paperwork for the new house. Now when I say new, I mean a hole in the ground that has a basement poured and that's it. After much looking at new and gently used and after my husband hearing from me about "why we shouldn't live in this area or that area" we came to a decision. Okay, I came to a decision (sorry) and put a spec home on hold until I could bring Jack to the showhome.
Jack had a meeting on Tuesday evening and I told him that I was going looking (again) at a showhome in Cranston. His last words (of course before he said he loved me) were "And don't buy house tonight". Obviously his last words of "I love you" must of been etched in my mind because I forgot about the other words. However, being the loving, caring, want to give my wife what she needs/wants came through in the end because he went with me on Wednesday and signed off on all the paperwork as well left a deposit cheque to continue with the building of our very own, brand new, never used home. As well another saying of "A happy wife, is a happy life" comes to mind.
One thing that I must say is that I have listened to so many "new home building folks" and the problems that they have had with selecting items (cupboards, flooring, counter tops etc) and I didn't have any problems with what has already been selected for this home. I guess when the word "upgrade" or "this is an upgrade from the standard" and they were already included in the price...why would I complain or want to change it???? After all my husband loved the price and so let's just go with the "we finally made a decision and we signed/paid for that decision". The best part was that the house was actually listed at one price, then when I was there on Tuesday it had come down a couple of thousand dollars; then when we went Wednesday the price had dropped again so Jack said just before signing, can I come back Thursday and it will be a different price again?
Now we must get ready to list our house next week and see what traffic comes through our (of course) very gently used 1989 house. It will be sad to leave this home as we came into this residence with much heavy baggage from our previously loved house and we watched all three of my kids grow into their teenage years there. Then the beloved grandchildren came to visit and even stay over with me there. As well we have had the best neighbors anyone could ever ask for. Kevin is out before the crack of dawn and makes sure our driveway and front sidewalk is clear of snow (it's usually a race to see who gets there first - him or us) as well his loving wife, Patti has been a true Christian sounding board for me. We have shared highs and lows of each of our families growing up, but I know that we are only across Deerfoot Trail for a visit. But I'm sure the next home will find us getting to know new friends on our block. I'm positive that God will continue to be with us on our journey of house building and selling. Stay tuned........

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Life Continues To Be Very Busy

I can't believe how busy we can all get. Our home (empty Nester's my foot) is hardly empty nor unoccupied. We are so busy, like this past weekend. Jack went to Regina as he sits on the board for Western Christian School. These past couple of months have been very stressful and time consuming for him. He is there again today with more meetings and that after 4 days on the weekend. Hopefully God can help with all the decisions that need to be made and that many folks won't feel hurt or unheard, but that they will wrap their arms around the folks that have to make heavy decisions.

Then while he was gone, I decided that I should have a "Girls Sleepover" party and so both girls came and brought the babies. What a great time - watching chick flicks, eating from Wok Box and then having a fruit/chocolate fondue. We had a great time. I just love being a mother and now a grandmother. These past couple of years has made me treasure my time with my daughters so much more than when they were growing up. I even feel guilty that Ryan is a boy and couldn't share with us on the weekend. I am so involved with my grandbabies and both of the girls reach out and ask for my opinion or my advise on food, formula or just growing up babies. Anyone out there going through the terrible two's or teenage years or just adolescence, just know that I had all of that and now this is the best time ever. God has allowed me to share so much with my kids and get so much back with having my grandbabies. The happiness that I feel for these "kids" is so over whelming that I could just break down in tears. So back to my weekend.....after the girls left late on Saturday, I headed out to look at some show homes (to decide if we are building a new house) and then out with our realator, Kevin to see a home that was built 4 years ago. Needless to say, I didn't buy anything and we will continue to check out homes to see what fits our lifestyle.
Once home from there, grocery shopping and going to Home Depot to pick up some tools, I started to work on our master shower. The dreaded job that I did manually three years ago - stripping out all the ugly grout. Well this time I had an electric drummel, safety glasses, a mask and a light. Nasty job - Sat night for 3 hours and then Sunday for another 3.5 hours. But it is now stripped down. Then I had to get ready for Nicole's 23rd birthday party...chicken fajita's, salad and lemon/blueberry cheesecake...so things to make and places to really clean after the white dust flew. Then Marc & Ryan took out the hide-a-bed & a chair to go to Breanne's place. Plus each kid took some of their personal items to help clean up on the things to be sorted.
So after all the festivities Sunday night came to an end, we were both exhausted for different reasons. But after talking about our weekend we realized that we both accomplished so much in such little time. After much prayer we know that God will see us through our missions and at the end of the day we know that we have done our best.
Then Monday we started all over again - going to work; going out to look at 2 more houses; cleaning up and stacking bins & labeling everything; then Tuesday, Jack flew back to Regina; I went to work to come home and clean up some more bins as well sort through my old "tickle trunk" to have it ready for Breanne to pass onto Lyla with some great dress up clothes. So many happy memories in there.
But all in all we are getting things in place and ready to move onto another chapter in our lives. We just realized that we never have had the opportunity to search out a house together for our life..so this is a new and exciting time and I truly am excited about venturing out to find our dream come true place. Home is where the heart is and where God surrounds us in our day to day routine. He is there in times of happiness, sickness but most of all he is just there.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Moving on Up

Great title...or is it? There are many things in life that we can adjust to and work towards, but one of the many hard things is MOVING. Okay it's not the moving but the packing up, throwing out or just deciding what to keep and what to give away. The last time this happened was in 1997 and we didn't have to do anything as some little juvenile criminals did the damage and our insurance company paid for a company to come in and pack up all of our treasurers and then move us. Now ten years later it's our turn to pack up our belongings and move on to a new chapter in our life.
We don't know where were going or even when.
If we thought that deciding what to pack; what to give-away; and what to throw away was tough, now we need to decide what to live in and then get there. Of course that's the half of it, but we also need to get our current house ready to sell. And anyone that has sold a house knows, there are many little & big things to get done before you can even list it. We have only a few things to fix but it's the de-cluttering that is the challenge. We have things left over from the kids and now we have added baby things again because of the grand kids. So we have an adventure ahead of us. But we know that this will be wonderful, challenging time as we decide on what's best for our future. Being an empty nester has it's rewards and benefits and I love my Life, as ut can't get any better.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Uplifting Sermon

Last night (like most Saturday evenings lately) we went to First Alliance Church. What a great building, wonderful people but the message was the best. I know that we have now heard four different ministers and each one has left me with the feeling, "now that's a sermon" and what a message for the week. I found myself taking notes last night and trust me that is something that I have never felt inclined to do. The sermon last night was about all of us having a small knapsack that we carry with life's burdens. The message talked about us carrying our personal, business, and general life's business of burdens around with us all day/night. The message was clear, concise and I got it! Terry (the minister) filled this small knapsack with small rocks as being our burdens. Not only did I get it, but I could relate to the message. What an evening! Then when we were sitting and having coffee in the foyer one of the young woman that works at our sister-company, came over to find out how long we had been attending this church. She knows Jack's brother & niece from Yellowknife - so this was a great connection with someone that is also very enthralled with the messages being delivered. I feel blessed to be living near a church that can leave a person with a feeling of peace, understanding but most of all with a message that says God is here to help us all with our burdens. We just need to pray and trust in him to let his words help us so that we can lose the burdens. And the people all said "AMEN"!

Friday, January 1, 2010

2010 - A New Year/New Beginning

Here we are January 1, 2010 - is that twenty ten or two thousand and ten? I have heard both in the past 10 days and know that I will soon decide for myself which way I will say the new year.
Every year at this time people make resolutions to try and make changes in their lives both personally, professionally and even healthy or medical. Which did you make? We hear this through the media as well. I sometimes wonder why we proclaim to make one resolution knowing that we might not achieve our goal. But is the reason to make it - a reason to fail. If were not happy about something in our lives then if we make a decision to change it, we should work harder to achieve the goal?
I know that 2009 brought both Jack and I some medically challenging times; some excitement and achievement in personal development; goals for reaching marital pinnacle that we might not of thought ever possible; and the best was receiving God's greatest gifts - son-in-laws and grandchildren.
But once again we have to do self examination for setting goals for ourselves on a personal, career and couple basis. What do we want to change in each of these areas to make us better people? Where do we see ourselves when (twenty ten) 2010 comes to an end and we ask ourselves if we reached everyone of our goals? I know that after becoming a Grandmother has made me want to be a better woman in showing my daughters and grandchildren a new "godly way of life" and to have a belief even stronger than I had in 2009. I want to read the bible more and know more about women in the bible -something that I have thought about for quite sometime. I want more for my job and be a better employee (especially in these times of uncertainty). I also want a better marriage and work on the areas that I know I can improve on to make myself a better wife. I want to be able to help Jack become a better husband; also help him in having a better career and doing what he is passionate about; I want to have both of us continue with our health plan and be more conscientious about what we eat and work out more.
So, that is how (twenty ten) 2010 looks for me - did you make your New Year plan and can you say that you hope to make it to December 2010 and mark off your list as being completed; I know that I hope to be able to do this. Happy New Year my friends and good luck with your plan.